(Another) New Year Post

 Honestly speaking, I feel like it’s still 2020 or 2021 but it’s 2025 what???

2024 has been crazy. 2014 is still on the top list (in a most negative meaning) but 2024 is just, startling? Astonishing? I don’t know man, English isn’t my first language unfortunately.

If you read my 2024 new year post, you would know my plan was just living in a more peaceful situation and finding the love of my life. Turns out, I’m just moving across the ocean and surviving alone like a real human. Not that I wasn’t a human before but, I hope you understand what I mean.

So, basically 2024 was full of tears (definitely since I’m a soft crybaby), blessings, chances, new places, new people, and everything I never expected could happen in a span of 8 months.

I moved from my little town to this enormous, busy, chaotic city to live by myself. The first 6 months were the most difficult especially on September to October. I spent most of my mornings before work to cry. I just missed everything at home and asking God (while in ugly tears) if it’s the right decision to make. I kept getting the urge to just book the ticket back home and left everything behind. 

But of course, despite all of the hardships, God let me be with people I’m so grateful for. And even until now, I think my biggest blessings are having good friends around in a strange city.

There’s this point when I had to go to an emergency unit and I was crying on that hospital bed not because of the pain, but because I was feeling both emotional my family wasn’t there and grateful because my best friend was there with me. I realized physical pain wouldn’t kill you but loneliness could.

Other than that, please don’t ask me or get me started about my work. I don’t want to talk about that. Let me deal with it in a silent cursing.

So yeah, now I’m here. Getting older in a faraway city. Still thinking about what might the future hold or if I get to meet the love of my life here. 

It’s still difficult sometimes, but I survived. And I pray for the better this year. We can never runaway from hardships, but we always have God with us. Now I sound like a preacher. But it’s true…

I actually have a lot in my head but I’m just too tired to think and write more. So cheers to more blessings, health, loves, strength, peace, and the contentment of our hearts!

Notes: Hope I get to write something again here soon.

xxLAC