She doesn't sure where the howling storm that could only be felt by her takes place. Inside her heart or her head. But she is completely sure that everything upon the earth is fighting against her. The people, the things, the weather...
She knows she can always cope it, until one day came. The day when she has to make a tough decision. She asks herself again, "What is this?"
Does he know what she's been trough these last ten years?
Does he know that she's put out all the stops just in order to wash him away a few years ago?
Does he know why she's always been afraid to reveal or ask everything? She never demands the answer because she's afraid that if she knew the truth, she would be in grief. A complete grief.
He knows nothing that she's never missed only one day without wondering him in silence for these last ten years. She knows even if she told him, he would never believe her in a sec.
He knows nothing that it was completely burdensome for her to mere come to see him again after almost seven years. She needed to destroy the bricks that she had built to protect her heart.
He knows nothing that it was even tougher to come again to see him in an-under-sun graduation for her because the last goodbye almost couldn't be coped. She turned around more than three times under that rain, as many as she almost ran again to him.
He knows nothing that it was almost becoming an unjustified decision for her to step into his side again when he lost his mother. Death is petrified for her. The death and his tears were even too painful for her to cope, but she stayed.
He knows nothing that the girl had to experience pretty much difficult weeks as the aftermath events from coming to him again. How memory of the funeral and the tears streamed down on his cheeks put her into an odd pain.
He knows nothing that she always asks The God to help him. She thinks that she'll be fine if he's fine.
He knows nothing that the girl has to wake up and face the pain motion which directly attacks. As the aftermath of his cruel intentions.
He knows nothing.
But the girl knows one thing; Everything that she believes about him is a mere dream.
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LACx
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